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moonlitsmoke: “Tu me parles avec des mots et moi, je te regarde avec des sentiments”

Fri, 01 Jun 2012 14:07:56 -0400

moonlitsmoke:

“Tu me parles avec des mots et moi, je te regarde avec des sentiments”

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Fri, 01 Jun 2012 14:01:19 -0400

Ap psych test in the morning. I have almost finished reading a 5 steps to a 5 in the past two...

Thu, 31 May 2012 23:33:10 -0400

Ap psych test in the morning. I have almost finished reading a 5 steps to a 5 in the past two weeks…but life happens and I am short a chapter and some important review for writing the essays.

I mean, even if I only get a 3 I’ll call it an accomplishment for successfully cramming a course into 2.5 weeks. I just wish I was going into this doing my absolute best, but there’s only so much one can do in their scarce spare time.

So it goes.

I’m up for a good challenge tomorrow - it will be okay if I don’t succeed. Good night.

thenewjob

Thu, 31 May 2012 00:14:13 -0400

today was day 2 and somehow it was almost just as bad as day one. don’t get me wrong, i don’t mind working, but when i’m at work longer than i’m at school or home or both combined in one day, then i have a problem. i have way too many commitments to dedicate EIGHT hours after school. i have to take my AP psych test (which i’m still teaching myself that because OH YEAH my school doesn’t offer it/i took SUPA psych last year/NYU will only accept the credit if i take the test and score a 4 or 5…), write my english paper outline (between studying…?), and i dunno, maintain my sanity.

i told them i would work 20 hours a week. MAX. i’m already at 16, and they want me to work saturday 4-close…aka another 6 hours. i’m not okay with this.

i don’t mind the work, i don’t mind the people (though some continue to baffle me with their lack of intelligence), and i don’t mind being in the mall late. what i do mind is not having my fucking life because they are putting me on ridiculously long shifts. hello, i’m in high school. yes, i realize i’m graduating and i’m sure this will be fine over the summer, but what the fuck. for the next two weeks, can you TRY to not load me with time? i’m pretty sure i’m competent enough to fold cloths. it’s only been 2 days and i’ve got it better than the new girl who’s been there for 2 weeks.

seriously.

i’m cranky and sad and tired and overwhelmed and i just needed to get this out of my system before tomorrow begins. i’m really quite alright, but sometimes i seriously need to leave all of this negativity elsewhere so i can continue to function normally.

hence, blog.

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Tue, 29 May 2012 17:07:22 -0400

Jamais Vu: Why I hate some couples

Tue, 29 May 2012 17:05:45 -0400

Jamais Vu: Why I hate some couples:

heavensfence:

When you decide to commit yourself to someone, you’re committing to everything about them - every little intricacy, every little flaw, every bad habit they may have. These traits are not yours to change, because you are not them. You may disapprove of things they do, but forcing your significant…

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Tue, 29 May 2012 17:00:42 -0400

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Tue, 29 May 2012 14:40:27 -0400

jdel: After nearly 10 years since getting signed by EMI at 16...

Tue, 29 May 2012 14:40:06 -0400

jdel:

After nearly 10 years since getting signed by EMI at 16 years old, my best friend’s first major label release drops today. Go listen to it. It’s been a long road littered with empty rock clubs and long drives and fake names and car crashes, but he’s doing it. I don’t have that many people that I truly look up to, but Matt is certainly one of them. Congratulations buddy.

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Tue, 29 May 2012 14:36:52 -0400

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Tue, 29 May 2012 14:21:48 -0400

modcloth: Keiko of Keiko Lynn in a pretty pleated skirt.

Tue, 29 May 2012 14:21:08 -0400

modcloth:

Keiko of Keiko Lynn in a pretty pleated skirt.

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Tue, 29 May 2012 14:20:51 -0400

Last year I tied a disposable camera to a fence and left a...

Tue, 29 May 2012 14:17:57 -0400

Last year I tied a disposable camera to a fence and left a little sign telling people to take pictures. This is part 1 of the results.

[Part 2]

[Part 3] (includes two pixelated testicle shots)

This idea was stolen from The Plug, a fantastic online zine that you should definitely peruse.

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Mon, 28 May 2012 23:18:14 -0400

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Mon, 28 May 2012 23:10:07 -0400

thepastweekend

Mon, 28 May 2012 23:09:24 -0400

well since my last post, i have done the following:

gone to chicago

ate REAL deep dish pizza!
chilled in millennium park with my brother.
chilled back stage with brother + musical talent aka brothers best friend for an LMFAO + the brothers BFF show.
watched a fight happen at said show….and parents with their children dancing to the song shots.
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bonded with my 25 year old brother.
contemplated my perspective on life after reading tuesdays with morrie.

flew back to new york.

drove to see the best guy in the whole wide world (:
favorite party activities occurred, including cutting out paper snowflakes, eating chocolate and pretzels.
marched in my last parade ever!!! (7 hours later..)
helped momma bear shop and possibly purchased some clothes myself…
had my first day at work.

and here i am. my feet are sore and my body aches but i’ve done it once more.

another bizarre weekend survived, despite walking around various airports, states, cities, stores, houses, etc.

and minimal sleep.

here i am.

you know, sometimes it’s the little victories in life that keep me satisfied. not a bad thing at all. after all that happened in the past 3 days, my biggest fear was my first day of work. it almost surpassed all of my other feelings, (there were a lot).

but i think i’ve conquered that fear - i can handle any day at work after this long, long weekend. nothing will be worse than this day 1. it takes a lot to exhaust me entirely - this weekend, it was done.

and i’m so happy about that. it feels wonderful to feel, and realize i’m actively living every moment i get.

the best part is having this wonderful realization….followed by some much needed sleep.

i’m happy.