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moonlitsmoke:

“Tu me parles avec des mots et moi, je te regarde avec des sentiments”

Ap psych test in the morning. I have almost finished reading a 5 steps to a 5 in the past two weeks…but life happens and I am short a chapter and some important review for writing the essays.

I mean, even if I only get a 3 I’ll call it an accomplishment for successfully cramming a course into 2.5 weeks. I just wish I was going into this doing my absolute best, but there’s only so much one can do in their scarce spare time.

So it goes.

I’m up for a good challenge tomorrow - it will be okay if I don’t succeed. Good night.

thenewjob

today was day 2 and somehow it was almost just as bad as day one. don’t get me wrong, i don’t mind working, but when i’m at work longer than i’m at school or home or both combined in one day, then i have a problem. i have way too many commitments to dedicate EIGHT hours after school. i have to take my AP psych test (which i’m still teaching myself that because OH YEAH my school doesn’t offer it/i took SUPA psych last year/NYU will only accept the credit if i take the test and score a 4 or 5…), write my english paper outline (between studying…?), and i dunno, maintain my sanity.

i told them i would work 20 hours a week. MAX. i’m already at 16, and they want me to work saturday 4-close…aka another 6 hours. i’m not okay with this.

i don’t mind the work, i don’t mind the people (though some continue to baffle me with their lack of intelligence), and i don’t mind being in the mall late. what i do mind is not having my fucking life because they are putting me on ridiculously long shifts. hello, i’m in high school. yes, i realize i’m graduating and i’m sure this will be fine over the summer, but what the fuck. for the next two weeks, can you TRY to not load me with time? i’m pretty sure i’m competent enough to fold cloths. it’s only been 2 days and i’ve got it better than the new girl who’s been there for 2 weeks.

seriously.

i’m cranky and sad and tired and overwhelmed and i just needed to get this out of my system before tomorrow begins. i’m really quite alright, but sometimes i seriously need to leave all of this negativity elsewhere so i can continue to function normally.

hence, blog.